Day 7 of A Mother’s Perspective— Trusting God with a Sick Child
“Now may the God of peace who brought up our Lord Jesus from the dead, that great Shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant, make you complete in every good work to do His will, working in you what is well pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen (Hebrews 13:20-21, NKJV).”
Have you ever had a significant moment in your life where you can look back and realize all the steps that lead up to that very moment? You can see tiny little details that helped pave the way, details that may have seemed so insignificant at the time, but in the big picture you can see they played a very important role. And in that moment, you know you are where you are supposed to be.
We have known from the very beginning that our daughter was created by God, exactly how she was supposed to be. He didn’t make a mistake with her, rather, He created her for a specific purpose. He equipped us with the tools we needed to handle her situation, and we know that God will use her and us to do His will as long as we are willing. I admit that I oftentimes feel inadequate to handle this task— what if I mess it up? What if I fail at helping her to realize her true worth? What if I let the fear of the unknown take over? What if God requires more than I can handle? But then I am reminding that our God is also a forgiving God, and even if I stumble every now and then, He will still be there, waiting for me to stand back up and carry on.
I mentioned before about how the doctors not only offered, but encouraged abortion in the beginning. The doctor who made me feel as though I was clearly making the wrong decision ended up being my primary doctor throughout my pregnancy. She remained cool and collected, but did show a bit of determination toward the end when she realized that our daughter was a fighter. After our daughter’s birth, this doctor had no reason to see us anymore. I no longer needed her care, and my newborn baby certainly did not have any need for a high risk OBGYN. But yet, I ran into her on several occasions just standing outside of my daughter’s room in the NICU. She would be casually standing by the door, watching the events happening inside. And I can’t help but wonder if we changed her thinking on abortion. Maybe she no longer encourages it, but instead encourages the mom-to-be. And who knows, perhaps this was just one of the ways in which God is using our daughter’s condition for His will.
Knowing that God has a purpose for our daughter’s life has helped us handle her situation more than anything else ever could. Is it easy not knowing what difficulties lie in her path? No. Is it easy not having answers for her condition? No. But knowing that God is using her for great things (even if it’s simply encouraging those around her) is what gives us the strength and confidence we need to tackle each obstacle as it comes. Some days are easier than others, but God remains consistent.
The peace you feel when you surrender your will and become confident in God’s plan for you is something I wish for each and every Christian to experience. I encourage you to be patient, however. It took a long time for me to realize God’s plan for my life, and then to embrace it whole-heartedly. God will equip you with what you need—all you need to do is have a willing heart and complete trust in Him.